SO WAT?

And God said that he was what he was and not having to answer to anybody, so here is my desiderata for I am what I am without having to answer to anybody apart from he that was before I am.

Therefore so what if I don’t have any of the regular male thingy of drinking, smoking or chasing women, I guess that mean that I can’t be measured by the same standards that other guys are measured with. I guess that makes me a guy apart from the rest. So what if I am very slow to anger, I guess that means that still have a little of Godliness in me coz he too is low to anger and so what, if since the very first time I came out of my mothers womb I personal have not engaged in physical fight and as much as possible use my wit to out-smart my adversary. The truth is it takes more strength to out smart an adversary than to engaged in a physical do away contest and make more of enemies than friends.

And so what, if the culture that applies to me is what others think to be a very violent and negative culture that we all should do away with. Hiphop did save my life, so where were you when I was down and all that could reach me and all that I could relate to was hiphop. I guess that I good understanding of the culture and others don’t, I simply gat a hang of it. So what if when I walk I keep my ear plugged up with my music blasting volumes away from the highest. I guess I’ve heard enough of the negativity and crap that the world has to offer and done listening to b*******, with people moaning and groaning about how they can never get it right. If they have noting to offer or anything positive to say I simply don’t wanna hear their crap or the b******* that they have to offer.

So what if my character is stained with a bit eccentricity. Go back in time friend and find out what ever great leader or person who have made their imprint in the sands of time, like me they were all Eccentric freaks (pardon my French), so I guess I have a vital ingredient to enable me leave my imprint in the sands of time and be successful. if you think that it don’t count go ask every single soul that has meet me and they will tell you that I never fail to leave a mark… So I might not be proud or arrogant and every little ego, but like those who have gone before me, in whose steps in walk although quite big to fit in, I am Eccentric so DEAL WITH IT.

So what, I find it very difficult to loose my cool and I don’t give hoot nanny, s*** or a pint of larger and people often than not find it difficult to get to me so they simply call me nonchalant. Just in case they haven’ figure it is the cool that I keep deep with me that me able to weather the storm, looking it straight in the eye without panicking, soaring right into it, coz I know that it is the turbulence that lies in the storm that would make a better -off coz I aint perfect yet. Also it is the cool that I keep that makes me learn the best out of every situation knowing very well that if I can’t change it, the best I can do is to learn from it coz its not every time in life that you have the opportunity to learn in life before being out to the test. So why bother my head and rant all day long.

So what if I constantly refuse to give-up and give-in and like Socrates I constantly get lost in my thoughts and imagination and amidst all that might seem wrong right now I am filled with hope for a better future. So what if my friends say I gat my head in the cloud and call me a dream like Joseph. What’s the beauty of life without a dream coz although I might not life to the physical representation of my dream like Walt Disney or Dr. king, I choose to exercise my right to dream coz I do have a right to dream and unlike most people I have to realize that the future is nothing but an open canvas waiting to be painted with the brush of my mind and the pallet of my imagination.

So what if I prefer light skinned ladies to others… life is all about choices right, so that it my prerogative and not yours. So what if all I want to do all day long is to chop and screw. Don’t get it twisted ‘chop and screw’ are just djing techniques… so go figure.

Although I have not enough space to write about all that I am, but I am what I am and not answerable to no one except he who was before I was. So therefore I am what I am and happy to be who I am, so don’t expect me to apologies or be sorry for what I am or who I am. DEAL WITH IT!!!